Mental mumblings

Alone among friends,
The darkness envelops me,
The future speeds towards me
The past screams away,
Day brings horror,
Night brings fear,
What is this horror, this fear,
Is it a wasted past,
Is it a tortured future,
Is it an unsure life,
I search for solace,
But am constantly thwarted,
When I look inwards,
I no longer find answers,
Only questions,
When I look outward,
I find nothing
Where does this future take me,
What has this past given me,
What do I really have?